Essays
you are
have always been
and always will be
in the perfect configuration
and
it is your misplaced desire
to be elsewhere
to have things
yourself
and others
be anything other than what they / you are
that perpetuates the illusion that something is wrong
that something needs fixing
which you would know is not the case
if you just stayed HOME
in the only place that’s true
while all that’s here for you
keeps landing at your feet
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You don’t need to figure out what’s next.
Life tells you.
Your being tells you.
So just go where you’re led like you’ve been doing all along.
The ‘next’ organic / inevitable direction will naturally bubble up through living in the current configuration.
As it always has.
As it always will.
Nothing to aim for.
Plan for.
Create in your mind.
What is custom-made for you just can’t help but pop through.
As you seamlessly move from one scene to the next.
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unless and until a move is crisp and clean
stripped of a reaction
an agenda
or another person in mind
stripped of the need (and all the words)
to explain
to justify
to prove
to get
to build a bridge where none is required
to soften or avoid the razor’s edge of truth
until you reach that specific point
the zero point
where nothing matters at all
the power and impact of that move is diluted and effectively made limp
turning it into yet another messy bit amongst other messy bits
blending in
not standing out
so what’s the fucking point?
that trying-but-not-hitting-the-spot move
that tainted / muddy / laced-with-matter move
that spilling-over-because-you-have-collapsed move
won’t do a damn thing except keep that mess in place
because a weak and sloppy move is not sharp enough
it’s not potent enough
and it certainly can’t be felt deeply enough
to rattle
to collapse
to erect what needs erecting
it can’t pierce the veil
like a clean move can
a move that’s made
because it’s true
not for anyone
or anything
else
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when you stay beyond your NO
the experience gets muddy
messy
tainted
ugly
showing you exactly what that NO was ‘saving’ you from in the first place
your being KNEW
but that knowing went ignored
until that NO you ignored got so damn loud
that nothing could make you stay
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You can feel when something is true and when it’s laced with something false.
If there is hesitation, confusion, muddiness, defensiveness…
a reaction to something or someone instead of a stand alone work of art…
there’s some cleaning up to do.
On your end.
Not theirs.
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True Dominance and Submission is about the energetic tension that can only come from a deeply powerful state.
And since most can’t generate, hold, or withstand such a thing,
they use force, rules, rituals and tools
to (over) compensate.
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there is a zero point
in every moment
in every situation
in every person
in every thing
and when you reach that still point
the cleanest point there is
it clears every board you’re playing
without you touching a thing
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if it was easy to truly be yourself
to move as freely and as naturally as you did when you were a child
before a lifetime of conditioning determined your moves
then everyone would be doing it
but they’re not
because it actually takes effort to live in integrity
which is crazy because it takes no effort to be yourself
it’s the most natural thing in the world
but to contend with all the illusory add ons you created along the way in lieu of being you
while in a family and in a world you chose to shrink yourself for
THAT is the hardest work there is
until
of course
it’s not
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When I spend money while being free of matter, I don’t feel like I have less money than I did before I spent it because energetically nothing has changed.
I just went from one move to the next in the physical but the move itself isn’t felt internally (distinguished from the previous or the next) because there was no matter.
It was just another moment on a cloud.
Energetically, I’m not even making a move.
I’m just being me.
The money / move itself is irrelevant.
An illusory transaction.
Of course that’s not how it looks or feels in the world of matter.
It doesn’t make it less true.
It’s never about the details of a move.
It’s about honouring the truth.
It’s about floating through space with as little obstruction as possible as you seamlessly dance from one moment and (non) movement to the next.
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It’s not enough to ‘decide’.
Not intellectually at least.
But if that decision is energetically backed by truth,
if a true line is drawn in the sand and you have hit the point of no return,
meaning you are so done with what was,
that it collapses in the face of what IS,
then that decision is plenty.
And the switch gets flipped in an instant.
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when there is smudge on the eyes
a distorted lens that discolours everything
one cannot see themselves
situations
or others
as they truly are
and…
in order to cope with that misperception of self
of the illusory other
of what is actually going on
(and the discomfort that arises from a truth one cannot own)
one projects what’s false
and deflects what’s true
effectively ‘protecting’ the illusion
while convinced it’s truth
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Yes, you’re a powerful, sovereign being.
No, this doesn’t mean you’re experiencing, and living from, said power.
That is something you earn.
Something you step into.
Something you choose.
With each and every move.
And every move that’s not IT for you.
Will lead to what's true, too.
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internal and external cleaning
is a constant refinement
an endless clearing
a seamless dance with matter
and there’s always a sigh of pleasure as i take in what i’ve created
experiencing this ‘new’ space for the very first time
feeling so much lighter and lovelier than when i visited last
more pure
more ME
stripped even further of debris
it’s a forever job
tending to one’s inner and outer home
or rather a living work of art
each stage
a masterpiece
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if it doesn’t feel as natural as breathing
if you don’t live for this and only this
if it feels separate from who you are
instead of integral to
and an extension of
the core of your very being
if it feels impossible to do
instead of impossible not to do
then you still have deeper to go
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In a call the other day, the fellow was talking about not having a purpose aka a made-up concept to attach himself to.
You know, to give himself / his life some direction, some meaning, some much needed motivation.
Something he can create an identity around.
Something to make him feel more ‘like a man’.
Because being exactly who he is and following his natural movements on the daily isn’t enough.
There needs to be an add on.
Something quantifiable.
Something more / other than this.
I told him I don’t have a purpose.
He said it’s different for men.
I found that amusing.
Mostly because he just put us both in a separate category based solely on physicality (ignoring the energy aka the truth which would completely disprove his point if we really were talking about the masculine and feminine) to explain why I’m fine not having a purpose and he’s not.
It’s not because I’m a woman.
It’s because I’m not attached to bullshit.
Regardless of gender, regardless of conditioning based on gender, an illusion is still an illusion.
Purpose (or lack of), like self-worth (or lack of), like value (or lack of), like countless other things that aren’t actually real, is just a human-made concept to attach to and create a story around.
Something to hold on to, to point to as the reason you feel the way you do, or do the things you do you think you should do.
Something to avoid being the living truth.
Which comes with no labels.
No terms.
No concepts.
No thing.
Your ‘purpose’ is to BE yourself,
unobstructed,
if there had to be a thing.
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It's not: "How do I get the clients / make the money / overcome the addiction / heal the pain / resolve this health and / or relationship 'issue'?"
It's: "When will I stop saying YES to a NO? When will I stop supressing what's true? When will I make being the living truth my full-time job regardless of who or what is in front of me?"
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the human needs
the clutter
the noise
the fear
the constraint
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the being is
the space
the silence
the edge
free
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You can’t waste money.
Just like you can’t waste time.
Because neither exist, ultimately, in the land of energy.
In the world of matter, however, money and time seem very real.
Quite valuable, in fact.
And both matter a helluva lot.
How you spend and save them is what it’s all about.
Always running out, it seems.
If they both stopped being tallied though,
oh, what glorious fun it would be.
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working with me is like being bathed in sunshine, sparkles and rainbows
while riding a unicorn in a parade of flying kitties
and simultaneously getting an upper cut, throat punch and / or kick to the gut
and if you’re really ready to rock and roll (on the very cusp of IT)
you’re also getting thrown off the unicorn
being submerged in water
and getting kissed on the forehead
when you decide to pop back up
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There’s no difference between giving and receiving money.
Between saving and spending money.
Between ‘high’ or ‘low’ numbers,
or how fast or slow money comes.
The only difference comes down to the vibe.
As you make every (non) money move.
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