The Residue of Denied Truth (An Essay)

When you ignore your NO far beyond that original moment of knowing,

you create residue in your system,

an accumulation of denied truth,

which will find its way through the density you’ve amassed, regardless.

If you neglect your NO, it will seemingly be forced upon you by less favourable circumstances (getting really sick and needing to take leave from a job you hate but refuse to quit, for example) because only at that point can you justify doing the thing you wanted to do long ago.

You created an external ‘permission slip’ as it were, to give yourself the internal permission to do the thing you weren’t willing to do until it got so bad you HAD no choice but to do it.

AFTER your system collapsed from the choice to repeatedly ignore yourself.

Which ultimately isn’t a problem.

You got what you originally wanted at least, albeit in a messier and drawn-out way.

But you can save yourself the self-imposed and unnecessary drama, pain and chaos in the future if you like, when you learn to respect and obey the NO.

Because when you’re able to do that, you won’t find yourself in a situational NO for days, weeks, months or years.

You’ll be keeping your system clear on the daily, instead of clogging it with all those perfectly beautiful yet often ignored NOs.

The ones that when listened and adhered to, have the power to shape the most exquisite experiences of your life.

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