To whom it may concern:
You are not your depression, anxiety, physical pain, negative thoughts, limiting beliefs, insecurities, and/or deep-seated fears.
These are the things that make you blind to who you really are. They aren’t the real you at all. They are what you must face and transmute in order to shine brightly in your true power.
It seems overwhelming and terrifying to face our dark spots but we all have them and the only way out is through.
You of all people can do this. You are bigger than your unique yet universal struggle(s). I promise you this. You have much more power than you give yourself credit for.
You weren’t put on this earth to feel bad all the time. It’s not natural. It’s proof of misalignment and it needs to be corrected because you deserve so much more than what you’re currently accepting as normal and acceptable.
The goal isn’t to feel happy all the time. The goal is to feel what you feel and move through all the layers on your way to healing each and every misperception.
The goal is to heal yourself. The goal is to love and accept yourself. The goal is to correct wrong thinking. The goal is self-understanding and self-compassion. The goal is to do the hard work on the inside that gives you the peace, joy and meaning you crave in your life.
I say this so much but no one can do it for you. People can love and support you along the path, but the real work is yours alone.
You need to snap out of the illusion you’re operating under. The one that tells you you’re not good enough as you are. It’s a universal lie being perpetuated constantly in society and being passed down through each generation.
The world would change in an instant if everyone felt good enough. So many enterprises thrive on people feeling unworthy and being disconnected from truth.
We hate ourselves and then hate ourselves more for all the ways the self-hate shows up in our lives. It’s insane and it doesn’t work.
I want more for you. And I wanted more for myself so I did what I needed to do and not one day goes by that I don’t actively work on myself and bring myself back into alignment when I’ve strayed from truth. I like to catch the false thoughts lickity split before they compound to the point of me landing back in a hole. Do I always succeed? No. But mostly I do.
It breaks my heart to see others hurting, especially when the pain is from the lies they believe about themselves. I just want them to see how perfect and amazing they are! But others wanted that for me as well and it didn’t change how I saw myself. I wasn’t there yet. Until I was.
There are too many people in holes they've dug themselves through the lies they’ve accepted as true. And that was me for much of my life.
It even breaks my heart to be on the other side of it now looking back to how much pain I endured - how many times I wanted to kill myself because I believed such horrible things about who I was and doubted my significance in this world.
How could I be so blind? So wrong? So cruel to myself? What was so horrible about me that I thought I’d be better off dead?
I had a list.
And what is so horrible about you that you feel so badly about who you are? Maybe you have a list, too.
But it’s a list of lies, my friend. A horrible, heart-breaking, soul-destroying list of lies.
The mind is a powerful tool. A destructive one, too. So please if you can, do all that you can to set your mind right. The quality of your life and your future depends on it.
You don’t deserve the pain you endure. There’s so much waiting for you on the other side of it if you make it your goal to get to the light despite being stuck in the dark.
I found my way through and I know you can, too.
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