Sweetlings, it was a year ago now and after 3 weeks of being offline that I posted the picture below of me getting an electrode treatment on my arms along with this tear-filled update. If you were part of our sweet tribe at that time, you knew I had really damaged my limbs from over-working and not enough self-caring for well over a year by that point. I was clearly a pro at not listening to my body and my precious little vessel couldn't keep up with how fast Too Good Triangles had grown and what I was demanding of myself to maintain it.
I gave everything I had. EVERYTHING. All the time. And I hurt myself in the process. But even then, even after the surgeon said for a second time to stop, just like he did a year before that, I didn't stop. (Slow learner much?)
It took another 6 months of me getting to such a high level of pain (both emotional and physical), and the urging of those around me who loved me and couldn't stand to see me suffer, that I finally, FINALLY, stopped.
That was in September. I'm crying just thinking of that time in my life right before I made the decision to stop Too Good Triangles completely. It was so dark and I genuinely didn't think I'd find my way out of that hell. I was very close to not being here on a few occasions last year, as those who follow my blog already know, so the fact that I am still here...well, I don't take that for granted.
But because I wasn't willing to take care of myself without something external forcing me to, it took my body breaking down and my life falling apart and a horrible depression and a HUGE break from Too Good Triangles for me to change myself and my life. For me to learn how to put my health above my work. For me to be willing to allow others to help me. For me to stop trying to do it all on my own. For me to find my worth beyond "doing". For me to learn the value of sleep. For me to allow my body to rest. For me to find happiness and meaning beyond being externally productive. For me to fall in love with me.
So here I am now. A newer version of myself. Still in pain but only physically, and not to the extent I once was. My left side is pretty happy and my right side is still quite grumbly. It's a process. Self-care and honouring my limits is a daily practice and one that still feels pretty new to me but I do get better at it as time goes on.
No amount of money could make me work the way I used to. I genuinely loved it at the time though which is one of the reasons why I was so resistant to slowing down. I was on a mission and I resented my body's limits and I was having a blast despite my pain, but I've since learned that if it's causing me pain, it's simply not in my best interests. Period.
So with that being said, I'm happy to announce that this Pastry Pimp now has a team and Too Good Triangles is back in action! HOLLA! Samantha, the chef who helped me create the Gluten-Free and Vegan/Gluten-Free versions of TGT, will now be my official TGT baker, and Kelly, a loyal TGT customer, multiple contest winner and Vegan TGT lover, will be my cutting, wrapping and shipping hottie. SO MUCH YAY!
And I will take care of my absofavourite part of the business - pimping TGT online, creating a new website so that you can order with just one click, running our fabulous contests, delivering our TGT newsletter, making sure everyone is happy and making sure you have TGT in your belly!
It will take some time for the three of us to get in the swing of things so please be patient, my friend, and stay tuned for a ton of changes. I won't be replicating what TGT once was because we're heading in a new direction now, but I will be keeping a few of the elements you all remember and love.
Thank you for your continued support and #TeamTGT looks forward to making your sugary sweet dreams come true!
All my love,
Mandy your Pastry Pimp xo