suc·cu·lent / səkyələnt 🌺 adjective: tender, juicy, and tasty. synonyms: luscious, ripe, soft, choice, mouthwatering, appetizing, delicious, scrumptious
Succulent is not only my word of the year (read more about my 2018 mission here), it remains the word of my life and the word that best reflects my true self.
It’s not just about physicality, despite this image and my celebration of whatever brings me joy (like having boobs or having cats); it’s a way of living.
It’s about being nourished from the inside, from one’s own well of personal power and connection first, and then sharing the results and the excess with others.
It’s about living and expressing from the depths of your soul even when others become uncomfortable by it.
It’s about making love to your life by actually being fully present for it and deeply engaged in it, even, and especially, when the going gets rough.
And it’s about putting your own power, joy and transformation into your own hands, because that’s exactly where they belong.
As I wrote a year ago in my piece, I Pour Myself Everywhere (because none of this has changed)...
Sometimes (most times) I am beautifully overwhelmed with the life force that pours through me.
Like ... I don't even know where to put it all so I spill it all over Facebook, and all through the club, all through my fleeting romances, all to anyone who'll listen, and with so much more swirly energy remaining!
It's a feeling of there just not being nearly enough outlets to pour myself into ... and a constant desire to express it all through something ... anything ... many things.
Facebook comes the closest I suppose, but even that, even with the numerous posts I share and writings I pen, that is only the tip of the iceberg of all that moves me and through me.
I have worlds inside me just longing to be expressed, needing to be brought to light, and my ultimate joy is in the expressing of whatever part of whatever world arises.
I know that is what I'm here to do.
I'm here pour my truth and energy through every corner and crevice, to genuinely fall in love with whatever gift each moment brings, to live so fully and deeply every day that when my last day comes I'll know I squeezed out every ounce of depth, joy and meaning that was to be had in this juicy, little life of mine.
I don't care how others live. I care that I live well. I care that I live large. And living large to me means fully appreciating all that is before me, and expressing all that runs through me.
ALL of it.
I feel like this is the thing I do the best. I extract and celebrate all the beauty around me, and face and transmute all that's within me. Every single day without exception.
I am not waiting for anything else to happen before I live and feel as fully as possible RIGHT NOW.
Because everything changes in an instant. You can never have your moments back and you can never know what's to come or when those moments will end but most go on living like each day is no big deal. But this day, this moment, it's the biggest deal there is.
You only ever have this one moment, my friend. And you need to really live it because it's all you really have.
This exact moment is a sacred part of your life, and your entire life is only made up of moments just like this one.
So if you're waiting for something, ANYTHING, to happen before you find what's worth loving right now, you're truly missing out on the beauty of your own life.
Please don't squander such an extraordinary gift.
Get in the business of adoring yourself and the precious moments of your tragically beautiful life while you’re still here to do it, because one day you won’t be, and you’ll have missed out on your greatest treasure.
P.P.S. If an erotic, poetic, insightful and vulnerable real-life fairytale is your kinda thing, I invite you to explore my soul's offering, The Poet & The Butterfly Collection.