I resurrected our literary love child, dusted it off and gave it a new set of clothing, and delivered it to the modern world that did not exist when it was born.
That was my sole (and soul) mission with the anniversary edition of The Poet & The Butterfly.
So, I've already achieved my personal goal with this book. It's out there via multiple portals for anyone to grab online at any time.
The paperback version isn't for me because I'd be fine without it; it’s for my readers who would rather hold a book than have it held within their device.
But my joy came when I delivered the digital version to all the online retailers. The version that I created on my own, unlike the first P&B which had many other hands touching it until production.
I took all the parts of the book into my own hands this time around, which makes me feel even more connected to the piece that already has my whole heart.
I made P&B exactly how I always envisioned it to be, and what I believe it was destined to be, but it needed time (like a decade) to grow into itself.
And even though it took longer to create than if I had given others the responsibility to make my vision come to life, I wouldn’t have changed a thing. The pride I feel is deep and wide.
The learning curve was steep as I made mistake after mistake (HUGE ones, too, that I’d be too embarrassed to share publicly), while learning how to format a book for print, then for digital in multiple variations, and then learning how to build an online store.
But it was worth it because now I know what I’m doing. Now I can say, “I did it!”, and going forward it will be so much faster and easier to publish my work.
Sure it will be fun to know my books are in shops eventually, but it’s not as meaningful for me as knowing that my self-proclaimed magnum opus (assuming that nothing will top the greatest experience of my life) is now residing in full view on my website, and that I was the one who made it all come to life and put it now where everyone can see it.
Everything else is just a bonus.
I did the work and honoured the calling of my soul 6 months ago to reclaim, revise and redeliver my baby, which of course is its own reward because the creative process is what it’s really all about for the artist; not what comes after.
I already lived out the best part of this process. I got to experience the deliciousness you’ll be reading about, and then I got to turn it into art TWICE, and share it with the world. Pure joy.
Sales and accolades don’t even come close to that.
The Poet & The Butterfly is my heavenly spot in the matrix of life. With this piece, I'm right where I belong...in my poetical realm, where time does not exist and magic overflows.
Happy, happy me.