I was tempted to write a long post about all that’s changed inside me since I made my well-being and mental health my #1 priority 76 days ago (read about the catalyst for that shift here), comparing the before and after like we often do, but why return to who I was and no longer am?
I can’t relate to that Mandy anymore.
I am now the one who sees her own beauty inside and out, and not just once in a blue moon like when I was being perpetually followed by the dark cloud of self-judgement, I’m talkin’ EVERY. DAMN. DAY.
Feels good to feel good. Feels good to CONSISTENTLY think good thoughts and raise my energy as if it were my full-time job because IT IS MY FULL-TIME JOB and I’m worth the effort and the investment now and forevermore.
Feels good being me EXACTLY as I am.
Feels good to love what I see in the mirror and to feel beautiful even in front of others. WHAT. Did I just write that? Yes. BIG yes. The BIGGEST yes and transformation for me.
Feels good to get higher and better every day. Feels good to know that I can trust myself to take proper care of myself no matter what. Feels good to love myself no matter what. Feels good to care more about my relationship to myself than to anything or anyone else.
Feels good to be tapped in, tuned in, turned on. Feels good to be a kickass manager of my thoughts and energy. Feels good to be fully aligned with my power. Feels good to love all the wounds that brought me here. Feels good to know that everything is awesome and it’s only getting better.
Feels good to be the Mandy I aspired to be. I have hit this place many times before, albeit inconsistently and less frequently, but to ride this amazing wave every day BY CHOICE AND THROUGH DELIBERATE EFFORT, without missing a day for now over 2 months, I feel so secure in who I am and what I’m capable of.
Am I happy and thinking epic thoughts every moment of the day? Nope. But I’m devoted to raising my energy however I need to whenever I notice I’ve fallen off course, and the percentage of amazing thoughts and feelings increases regularly. I feel and express everything like I always do to honour my current truth and move through the moment with as little resistance as possible, but after I’ve done that, the goal is to raise myself higher than ever before.
I’m the greatest investment of my lifetime. Glad to be taking that responsibility seriously and wholeheartedly whilst having the time of my life.
(Art by Broken Isn’t Bad)