In my first year of business, I poured my heart, body and soul into building Too Good Triangles. I gave it everything I had, and then some more, and it grew faster than I felt ready for and my body broke down because I simply couldn't keep up with the demands I was placing on it.
The more pain I was in, the less love I had for TGT. By the time I couldn't use my hands, I hated my business with my whole heart because the thing that once felt so light and fun and limitless, turned into my ultimate hell.
I took a (forced) year off with much resistance and hurt and anger and of course physical pain, and I swore I'd never return to TGT. I cursed it for what it had done to me even though it was me who did it to myself. I had much to learn about balance, rest and self-love.
I was a workaholic by nature. I didn't want any outside help. I ignored my body's needs for far too long because I only cared about my vision and I was willing to endure my pain to realize it.
I also said no to every offer that came my way from a cafe, restaurant and store that wanted to sell my desserts because I was already overworked and cared more about building relationships with my own customers than I did about serving theirs. And you know what? I don't regret doing any of these things. NOT. AT. ALL.
My passionate and driven nature got me to where I am and helped me create many things along the way. My independence allowed me to split from my family and raise a great kid on my own. My injury forced me to stop and reassess my priorities and put self-care at the top of the list where work had always been, and I learned that I am worthy regardless of what I "do".
And my choice not to merge with other businesses allowed me to cultivate my own. It also allowed me to develop an incredibly loyal customer base because I was able to meet 90% of those who ate my desserts during that first year and a half. I created a very personal business with wonderful heartfelt connections with my sweetlings, and that's just how I wanted it.
That focus on what really matters is the reason I have all the support that I do right now during this next phase of TGT. I earned that. I earned it by putting them first. By offering more freebies than any sane business owner should, by taking the time at every pick up to genuinely connect with the person at my door, and by creating a loving cocoon of sweetness that all awesome people can be a part of.
But when I returned to TGT this past spring after a year off, it wasn't with my whole heart. TGT had only half my heart. I no longer wanted the business but I also knew the product belonged in the world and I also loved reconnecting with my customers so I kept it going despite the constant inner conflict. I had this great thing with great support but I was simply doing the motions while I desperately tried to find something "better" to do with my life and my time over the past few months. I wanted a complete life overhaul.
Everything became crystal clear and beautiful. Everything made sense. I felt my purpose return and things have just been lining up effortlessly in multiple areas as a result.
When I met with Marc at Princess Cafe and we were ironing out the details of getting my desserts in his shop, I felt my TGT mojo return like a mofo. And ever since that day it keeps increasing and I feel just like I did during the first year of business. I feel like my broken TGT heart has finally mended and I'm ready to move forward once again without any inner resistance.
All my love, and oodles of gratitude for all the support I've been getting during such a pivotal time in my life,
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