If you're anything like me, there are some things in life that scare the beejeebers out of you. Things that you might really want to do and achieve but you just can't seem to get the ball rolling because of certain fears, insecurities, limits and/or excuses, so you stay right where you are because it's safer. At least you can't fail if you don't try. At least you don't have to face your greatest struggle and the discomfort that it will bring if you keep avoiding it.
But that's no way to live.
I didn't launch businesses, leave my first and only radio gig to create Mandyland Radio on iTunes, write my books or pour my soul out to the world through my writings by holding back and hiding from my desires. I had a great idea and I just did it. I felt inspired so I went for it. And I'm sure there are plenty of things you have already done in your own life that demonstrate your ability to move forward in order to have, do and be the things you truly want. We all have some great accomplishments under our belt. We're already rockstars.
But for the things we've yet to try, do, achieve, explore, and the things we keep putting off because it just feels too darn scary to give it a whirl (like me with these videos), I offer you My Magic List in the hopes that it will inspire you to name your fears as well as the best case scenario in whatever venture, action, decision you're feeling nervous about. There really is power in putting it on paper. There's power in telling yourself the truth. There's power in being exactly who you are with all your light, your darkness, your contradictions and your constant evolutions.
You're right where you need to be and you're the perfect version of you for what's required of you in this moment. You can get there from here. Pinky swear.
And just in case you need to hear it, it's okay to feel scared. It's okay to not feel ready. It's okay to be exactly where you are and to feel what you feel. But just consider what is really in charge of your life. Is it your fear(s)? And if so, do you really want that to be the case?
I dreaded getting back into videos - so much so that I felt sick to my tummy while I recorded the relaunch video two weeks ago. But I still did it. Why? Because enough years have already gone by of me finding excuses not to do my weekly videos (the same 17 excuses I listed in My Magic List), and I knew that another few years would go by if I didn't find a way to get myself back in front of the camera despite my insecurities.
I also knew that I couldn't be happy until I gave myself the gift of following through with this goal of mine. And that I'd always regret not doing this series more fully. And that I was the only one holding myself back and thus, I was the only one who could make this thing happen.
It was all in my hands.
So then it became a matter of deciding how much longer I'm going to hold this dream out of reach. I decided not one week longer. I recorded the very next day - puke vibes and all.
And now, just two weeks later, I was actually excited to record! I didn't feel nervous at all. It doesn't mean I'm more comfortable looking at myself on the screen because I'm not and I don't know if that will ever change, but that discomfort is no longer debilitating enough for me not to do a video.
What I want to share with the world is far more important than my aversion to seeing myself now, and that shift occurred within just two weeks so imagine what could change for you within a short period of time if you took a chance and faced the ickies and stepped into the dream you've been dreaming for so long.
I believe in you as much as I believe in me. Take just one step, my friend.
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