In my version of an ideal world, the amount of money people had would be in direct proportion to the purity of their hearts, their level of awesomeness and the quality of what they put out into the world (energetically or otherwise).
Every person doing their soul's work would be the richest of the bunch (they are by default anyways but I'm specifically referring to money here), and the further away you'd go from that sacred work, the less money you'd receive.
Money would not be something you have to go 'get' by doing something you don't want to do just to get it.
You'd be rewarded simply for doing what you do best, whatever that is.
Money wouldn't even need to exist. Bartering would be the way of life. Skills, services and products would be swapped between those most qualified and/or happy to make/do whatever they're making/doing.
But our modern world isn't set up that way. I've gotten by on bartering and generosity more than money over the past 2 decades but an upcoming shift in my life requires a ton more money that I currently have at my disposal.
The dollars themselves aren't the point though.
The thing is, I have never been motivated by money. I wish I was - kinda - but I only care or think about money in terms of paying bills because that's how society is set up.
The rest of the time I'm building and creating and expressing and not counting dollars. I could care less because I always have what I need.
I'm not after the dollars. I'm after full alignment and full self-expression and having as much time as possible to create my style of art.
And I just assume that the dollars are the natural extension of that. That they are magnetically drawn to my constant focus and deliberate action when those dollars are required and that's why I've never been without.
Like, I even assume I'm going to be a billionaire some day (not even kidding) because of how in tune I am with myself, my path and life itself, and because I respond to EVERY call from my soul every single day.
And also because I already feel like a billionaire each day. I already feel like the richest woman in the world despite living in "poverty".
I'm only "poor" if you look at my bank account.
I am incredibly wealthy by every other standard.
I have always had exactly what I needed financially and otherwise, which honesty never been much.
My bills have always been minimal by choice because I didn't want to acquire or commit to anything that would force me to make additional money in ways I might not enjoy or in ways that would take up precious hours of my day.
My freedom to create and to be myself and to do what brings me joy matters more to me than anything else. So I arranged my life around that.
I chose a life of not knowing which which week or month I'll make enough money to eat, because I'd rather have that uncertainty than to give my hours away to an external job that provides more certainty because quite frankly, I can't get those hours back.
Our hours are all we have, my friends. And I care so much about how I spend mine.
Everything I am creating has the potential to make me money in the future (stay tuned!), but that's not why I create these things.
I do it because I have to. Because I can't help myself. Because a day wouldn't feel right or complete if I wasn't spending it being creative and expressing and/or sharing my gifts.
The process of creating is the greatest gift bestowed upon any artist. I wouldn't trade that for anything. Nothing tops the fulfillment of making your vision a reality. Absolutely nothing.
But back to the matter at hand. Money.
Money is now something I have to think about because of an upcoming shift in my life to the tune of $800 per month. And this makes me realize how inadequate I feel at adulting in the conventional way.
I'm magnificent at what I do, at my style of work and art and I am fabulous at manifesting so many extraordinary things and people and experiences.
I am not so great at making money just for the sake of making money because I'm not internally motivated by that. Not one bit or I'd already be doing that.
I've never been without everything that I need so I'm good. Not that I could anticipate how those needs would be met, but they've always been met.
I've been happy for many, many years doing the bare minimum to get the required dollars needed to live so that my remaining time and energy could go towards what really matters to me. My craft and the process of transforming it into something I could one day earn money from.
I have lots on the works.
I am really great at being spoiled by life so wanting more just to have more seems silly. I attract so much abundance every single day. Amazing things and people and experiences are always popping up in my world and the good stuff just keeps increasing.
Miracles surround me. They always have. I've been living a gorgeous life for over 2 decades on around $8,000 - $10,000 a year. Yep. A YEAR. I was the richest when I was in school living on a student loan. I felt like a millionaire and managed to save thousands easily on OSAP whereas many others I knew struggled to make ends meet on a similar amount.
But I really am fantastic with money. I might not make a ton of it but I sure as hell make the best use of every dollar. I don't know anyone who could do so much with so little.
Neither Paige nor I have ever been "poor". We had what we needed and she was raised seeing a mother who made creativity and authenticity and personal transformation the priority in her life.
Although I've never had a 9-5 (thank God), it's not like I'm avoiding work "out there". My life transformed IS my work so that's what I devote myself to "in here". I've had plenty of side gigs out in the world to help during the lean months as I built businesses and worked on various dreams, and I'll be needing to get another one really soon to deal with this next chapter.
But ultimately I just care about doing the work that matters the most. The work with the highest return. The work I know I'm meant for.
Can you blame me for not being super pumped about being taken away from that JUST because more dollars are required? It all seems so silly. And there are plenty of people with the mindset that you have to suck it up and get a job like everyone else like because it's normal and accepted.
I'm not into "normal". Do I appear normal to you? I sure as hell hope not.
So in return for my commitment to myself and my life's work all these years, I got an extraordinary daughter. I got extraordinary friendships. I got a body of work online that I'm proud of. I got the joy of spending EVERY SINGLE DAY of my adult life doing EXACTLY what I know I'm meant to be doing.
THAT CANNOT BE BOUGHT!
That is created. That is a deliberate choice I've made for my life. That trumps everything else.
But here I am with a new chapter about to begin, which is going to require a new version of me.
No I don't know how the hell I'm going to do this. But I am 100% clear each day on what's required of me both creatively and adulting-wise, so I want to trust that every nudge I receive from life is taking me to where I need to go.
I expect miracles, yes. But we only get those when we're doing our part of the deal. Life requires action. It also requires listening and paying attention to the cues that let you know where to go next.
So I'm listening. I'm movin' and shakin'. And I'm doing the Mandyland hustle that includes as many moments of joy as humanely possible.
I love my life. And life loves me.
And I want to be able to say the exact same thing every single day for the rest of my life.
Here's to whatever is on its way,
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