I skipped school today to be with myself after days of being with everyone else.
It might be impossible to return tomorrow. Or the next day. Or the next.
I'm all peopled out.
I crave more than a day's worth of silence and solitude. I crave enough of it to be replenished. To feel reset. To feel reconnected to my own voice and reality ... or maybe to be free of both for a while.
I want to get lost in the abyss. And then I want to create a whole new world inside myself from the ground up. But that takes space and time.
I do not fit well into structured systems - the full days outside of my home 5 days a week and then repeat.
What time is left for living? For being? For creating? For playing? For soul-searching? For resting and contemplating?
So many hours get used up playing grown up. And just because everyone else is doing it doesn't make it right or the only way to move through life.
It's fine when you have the inner resources or drive to withstand convention, but when you're forced to choose it over your own well-being, that can be a challenge.
What about the days you need for yourself? Not because you're sick, but because you're healthy and you want to stay that way and you know exactly what that requires.
A break. Personal time. The space to reflect and switch gears. Or to just have fun and not do a damn thing on your list.
We don't need to go, go, go to get through life. We need to listen to our body, our heart and our soul every step of the way.
We have all the answers we'll ever need along our path but are we paying attention to our innate wisdom?
Did you listen to yourself today?
I did. And there was no way I was leaving my sacred space even though I already missed a day of school yesterday and last week.
I napped. I cleaned. I wrote. I listened.
I made a new commitment to myself and wrote out 89 reasons why it was a wonderful and self-loving choice.
And I just enjoyed not being around anyone but myself and the kitties.
Staying home was my gift to myself.
What will you give yourself next?
With love and a desire to float away for a few days,
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