At this time last Monday I was waiting for a guy to show up to look at Paige's room which I was going to rent out. That was my new plan. He was desperate for a place in Cambridge for November 1st and I was desperate for a solution to my rent issue.
It was my last ditch effort to stay here. It's not at all what I really wanted. I decided only the night before that I'd be willing to suffer the hell of living with a stranger if it meant staying in my sweet home.
Anyways, he was a no show.
After that I decided I'd visit Paige for a few days to see if I'd like Montreal enough to call it home, but now that same visit is turning into me dropping my things off to live there.
A lot can change in a week.
If everything you're doing isn't working, it's probably because that's not what you should be doing.
Life is continually directing and redirecting us towards what is best for us and away from what no longer serves us.
We might think we know what that is, but sometimes we don't.
I thought staying here was the best idea. So everything I did was to serve that goal. But despite my desires and my best efforts, things weren't panning out to do that.
And now I'm so grateful for that because I would not have thought to do this unless all those doors kept closing. I was being pushed out of here. The crunch was real. It felt awful because it meant my world as I knew it was about to end.
Growth isn't always comfortable or fun. And things can get messy right the before the clarity comes, but now that I'm here on the other side of comfort - now on the side of the unknown - I'm really, really happy :)
The possibilities are endless now.
I can't get much better than that.
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