Here I am pictured with my beloved teacher, Maria, at yesterday’s breakfast at Maamm Bolduc with some classmates just minutes before she left for Cuba, and shortly after we each received our exam marks. I passed!
Maria helped me make it through level 6 as some of you might remember reading about here. I was going to quit this level because The Poet & The Butterfly took over my life for a couple of months, and I had very little time for class and missed so, so much school.
But Maria encouraged me to stay til the end and believed I had what it took to pass and miraculously, I did.
Maria was my level 1 teacher as well, and I’m grateful I had her again for level 6 because I’m not sure another teacher would have known me well enough or cared enough to offer me the advice and encouragement and hugs that she did during a difficult time.
A different teacher might not have even given me the chance to write exams after how many days I missed. But Maria already knew I was a good student and that my absences were for my work, and we already had a bond which made me want to keep going until the end.
Near the very end though, weeks after our heart to heart and after missing even more classes than expected leading up to my book release, she was genuinely worried I was taking on too much and suggested I skip exams and and save myself the stress and just relax for a while (in retrospect that is exactly what I should have done given My Creative Comedown), but by that point I had already decided that I needed and wanted to at least try. Now it was my turn to believe in what I could accomplish and I’m so glad I did despite complete exhaustion. I made it through and now I’m proud and happy to have passed.
I’ll be starting level 7 in January with some of my friends from both level 6 classes since there is only one 7A class which means no splits next term! Finally!
Sadly we will no longer see Maria in the halls or out front of the school like we always do though, because she’s now done at Saint Louis and will be starting at a new school in January. That’s especially why it felt important for me to go to the breakfast even though my body just wanted to stay home sleep forever now that exams were done.
But some things are more important than sleep. Like working on The Poet & The Butterfly Collection. Like heart to hearts with those I love. Like breakfast with Maria and a double Christmas party with my Zenith crew right after. These things were so worth it and the joy I felt gave me the energy I needed to carry me through from morning to night.
The vodka and dancing may have helped a bit as well.
Anyways, Maria is a sweet human with a big heart and I’ll miss her so much, as will many others.
With love and the freedom to sleep as much as I need and want now,
P.P.S. If an erotic, poetic, insightful and vulnerable real-life fairytale is your kinda thing, I invite you to explore my soul's offering, The Poet & The Butterfly Collection.