“Here is the real problem: Your body is producing pain because it’s manifesting unresolved stress, possibly from your childhood, or from stressful events in your adulthood, or from your present circumstances, and as a result of your personality traits (which affects how you respond to stress and how much pressure you tend to put up on yourself). Your mind has twisted your body into pain as a way to avoid some of the emotions that are inside you. If you haven’t been helped by traditional or alternative medical care, the diagnosis may be the Mind Body Syndrome and most people have some form of it. But you don’t have to live the rest of your life with this pain. In fact, if you begin to understand her syndrome and recognize what it causes, you taking a powerful first step.” The Curable App
Friends with chronic pain, I highly recommend an app called Curable (a science-based education tool that offers exercises to help you heal) which subsequently led me to the website, unlearnyourpain.com, which I also highly recommend.
As I’ve mentioned in previous post, my current mission is to free myself from the chronic pain which I attributed to being a baker for Too Good Triangles, and being a writer and social media hottie (therefore LOTS of overuse of my hands and arms over many years), but I know goes deeper than that and started even before that (it also happened in 2008 during my time writing The Poet & The Butterfly - and during university I has intense back pain) - but it wasn’t until Too Good Triangles that the pain and debilitation reached its zenith.
Over the years I have tried many things (acupuncture, cupping, laser therapy, massage, chiro, physio, cutting out sugar (proven to decrease inflammation), and not using my hands, but here I still am with chronic (and sometimes debilitating) pain.
While I think it’s necessary to get medical care to make sure things are okay structurally, I do believe that pain - especially chronic pain - can also come from our emotions and stress and it’s important to look at that as well.
Whatever is unresolved inside of us will manifest itself somehow eventually (be it migraines, anxiety, depression etc), and that is the direction I am looking towards right now in addition to getting physical care and relief.
When I shared a post about going through my mom’s things, I mentioned that I have a lot of grief inside me. There’s a lot of anger as well. And it’s been proven that those with traumatic or adverse childhood conditions are at greater risk for developing chronic pain. It’s not anyone’s fault. It’s just how the brain processes things and how it adapts to what happened.
Also, if you are a perfectionist and always believe you’re not good enough, or you always people please, there’s a lot going on inside of you as well that could create stress and bring your body out of balance.
If that sounds like you, Curable might be the next positive step along your path.
We never get it all done but there is always work to do and there are always new levels of balance and healing to move towards.
And if you can remember that your pain is genuinely trying to protect you from what it perceives as a threat, you can hopefully curse it less for the message it’s trying to send you: you need to learn how love and support yourself more, and it’s time to look within.
The Curable app is changing SO much for me, especially the way I think about my pain, and I’ve had a few amazing insights in the past few days as a result and I feel so incredibly hopeful about my body’s ability to heal.
I also very much feel the connection between repressed emotions (from the past and even the present) and the amount of internal pressure I have put and continue to put on myself, and how both of those things have contributed to my chronic pain.
And I peel away layer after layer, year after year, and now here I am in a very beautiful position of being able to really deal with things I haven’t been able to address as of yet because I had to do all the other work first to get here.
I have released a lot of grief lately. Cried a bunch the last few days. And I’m oh so willing to release whatever pain remains so that I can get back to being who I really am.
The pain isn’t who I am. It’s an expression of emotional work that still needs to be done. It’s trying to protect me. It’s trying to get me to pay attention to what’s not being looked at. And I’m listening with my whole heart because I deserve to feel free and comfortable in my body.
Bit by bit. Day by day.