Today I had a very important telephone meeting to take the next step towards getting Too Good Triangles produced in Quebec.
This was no small thing for me.
Last week the NDA (Non-Disclosure Agreement) was signed by Phil aka the fella who will be producing and distributing my desserts right here in Quebec, and this contract protects both me and my recipe.
Today's call was to sort out the details surrounding this new partnership and I was and am still terrified.
The reason that this particular step has brought me plenty of anxiety, is because it requires me to share my recipe for us to keep moving forward. You know, the extraordinary recipe I have protected for all these years (I've had it for almost 20 years now). The recipe I have never shared with anybody apart from Paige when she helped me while I was injured. I'm sure she wouldn't even remember how to bake TGT at this point because it's been years and I never wrote it down for her in the first place.
I don't have the recipe written down anywhere to be honest.
But that is going to change this week when I send the ingredients and measurements to Phil so that we can move onto the next step.
And it's not easy for me to do this. I'm crying as I write this.
Yes, I know I'll be fine (probably by the end of this post) but my truth in this moment is that this is terrifying for me and I was sick with anxiety last night and today over taking such a huge step.
I know I'm protected legally. And I know I'm working with someone who will protect me ethically as well.
But it doesn't make it any easier to hand my golden egg over to someone else. That requires a lot of trust; something I don't have towards most people for much lesser things.
Any business owner can relate, I'm sure. We give birth to our creation and put our heart and soul and sweat and tears into it and then at some future point it's time to give it wings and potentially let someone else (or a number of others) get involved. Yikes!
Growing a business involves risk. Expanding a business involves other people. And taking the next step requires a whole lotta faith and trust in addition to making an intelligent and well thought out decision.
Phil wanted to partner with me a year or two ago. I wasn't ready then. He fully respected that.
For the past 4 years while I've been in business I was not willing to let anybody near my recipe, but life pointed and brought me to Quebec. So over the past number of months I became open to the idea of having my desserts made in the same facility where Phil makes his Strongbars.
I feel like I have taken TGT as far as I'm willing to take it on my own, and my dream for the last four years of running my business was to not be the one baking them.
I just want to run the show and pimp like a mofo and get TGT out in the world; not be stuck in a kitchen day after day in order to do that.
This is why TGT needs an extra set of hands to get to more people, more cities, more countries.
So this seems like the next best step.
It feels like it's time to bring another person into the picture so that I can focus on what I do best, and be relieved of the part I dislike the most.
I imagine it will be a number of months before we will be in production, and a second contract will be signed next month that outlines our business structure and profit split breakdown, but for now it's time for me to take a deep breath (or one hundred of 'em) and remind myself that it's safe to let go. It's safe to take the next step.
It's safe to take this leap of faith.
With love and fear and the willingness to feel and move through it like I always do,
"It's natural to cry when you give birth..." Dan Predhomme
"Change and trust are difficult for all of us. But they are necessary to bring something cool to a wider world. Go you for daring!!!!" Craig Rintoul
"This is great news Mandy. I'm super happy to hear the new step for TGT. I feel this will bring TGT to more people and that's what TGT is meant for. To spread the addiction. Our pastry pimp is moving on to bigger and brighter things. I'm happy to be able to say I knew them when.... I know this is super hard for you sweetie but I think this is exactly the reason you were meant to move to Montreal for. I'm so proud of you. Love you sweetie." Lynda Hancock-McGill
"You are a successful and brilliant woman. There is nothing to fear!!! Go Mandy!!" Lily Rivera Contreras
"A gutsy move, Mandy! I wish you all the best!" Kent Nickerson
"Congratulations on making your dream a reality...not many take that risk." Leslie Burt
"WOW, I'm sure that was/is incredibly hard. I wish I had an awesome secret family recipe that I could share with the world. But, I don't. I can't imagine what you must be going through. It's awesome that this next step is happening though." Sammy Losee
"I think you are doing the right thing Mandy! I think this is great!" Gayle Jones
"I understand completely hun, I feel you are making the best decision for you as a business lady and a person, congrats on this huge move I know it will bloom into more cities around the world in no time at all." Shelly Hu
"My thoughts are the same as always, YOU'VE GOT THIS!!!" Debbie Elliott Dronfield
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