I had mentioned publicly on Facebook that I doubled my rate for my newest contract, and even though this was something very important for me to do, it didn’t make it easy.
I was so scared and nervous to claim that new number, and was even afraid I’d lose the contract for taking that chance, but potentially losing the contract was a risk I was willing to take because I had dreamed of that number for a while and I wasn’t willing to work for less. That was my new rate. Period.
I wanted to share this in case anyone reading it is craving expansion but also feeling nervous to do something beyond their comfort zone. This isn’t about money. You can apply it to any area you’re wanting to expand.
We can’t wait until we feel great and ready before we take the leap. Taking any big leap often feels terrifying. If it wasn’t, we would have been leaping long ago.
We are the only thing holding ourselves back.
I felt sick to my stomach when I claimed my new rate. And I dreaded his response. And I was also having a week from hell when I needed to do this so there I was feeling so teeny and scared but I knew that aligned, BIG Mandy wanted this number exactly.
So I claimed it on her behalf from a quiet little corner in my heart, and to my complete surprise and utter joy, I got what I asked for! And on my next contract I will claim even more. My rate increases with my experience and with time. I decided that long ago.
What choices have you been making? What lines in the sand have you been drawing? What have you been settling for and/or asking for?
Life gives us what we’re willing to give ourselves, so if you know what you really want but have been too afraid to ask for it, I triple dog dare you to take a leap.
I accomplished my dream of being in a dance video while feeling nauseous and terrified and completely insecure. I feared the worst and cried the night before. I had to face some deep-seated fears and insecurities to make this dream come true, but I did the video despite those things (and with help from my loves) because BIG Mandy wanted that dream for decades so I wasn’t going to let little me take the lead anymore.
Living a BIG life is about getting out of your own way and going after the things you want even and especially when it’s terrifying.
And if you want a bigger life, an expanded experience and a richer ride, you are the only one who can make that happen, and it starts with moving towards the things you desire.
You crave them for a reason. You are equipped with what you need to have them. You can do it but only if you actually do it.
So please let your BIG self lead your life. Too many people already live so small and that’s just not good enough for you.
(Art by Gabriella Rosie)
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