I'm grateful for my tribe. My small but wonderful group of fellow soul-centered travellers who have the "eyes to see and ears to hear" what I offer. I don't just mean my cyber followers. I mean my heart friends - even those I've never met. Those who really resonate with what I share along my journey and actually care. Especially during shitty times.
It's easy to stick around and offer a few "likes" when things are awesome, or to celebrate someone's great moment(s) once all the hard work is done, but to reach out when another being is struggling or in pain, well that takes a special kind of awesome and I'm grateful for the few who genuinely care about me and are helping me get through the hell of still having the devil and his cohort live next door.
It's hard not to hate humanity when I witness cruel insanity, and it makes me want to pull away completely even though I know I'm better off staying connected instead of alone right now. I already feel very alone in this. No need to add more aloneness to that.
And it's been hard to concentrate on the project I had planned for myself this week because dealing with my neighbour and hearing all the garbage totally drains me, keeps me up, and makes it SO hard to feel good and accomplish what I want to do. Inspiration doesn't come for me amongst chaos. I don't feel safe or happy or free right now. It's my kinda hell.
Paige and her honey left for the week and this was supposed to be MY time.
I resent not getting to have my peace-filled week of solitary joy that I had been planning. I deserve it. I need it. I was on a roll. I was free. They were told to move out and the moving truck showed up on the 15th and I thought the hell was finally over.
But then they returned and they have yet to leave despite much of their stuff being gone.
It takes all of my energy just to reduce my own anxiety and anger about the situation. And now I have to pump myself up to call authorities again because of course they are still at it, and then deal with even more bullshit afterwards.
Once again, being in my home is not a joy because of someone else's craziness.
I know and trust all is as it should be and there is a reason for this, if only to have me share something that might be beneficial to another.
I just can't wait for this nightmare to be over.
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